The mysteriousness of God’s designs are purposed to move and stir His children to seek him earnestly in prayer and submit to His wise and loving providences with faith-filled meekness. It is most natural for man, however, to scan His work and lean on his own understanding. Our heavenly Father has lovingly tailored each affliction to remove with careful precision the props we place under our hearts – that we may lean completely upon Him. It is He, who “knows all our ways” (Psalm 139:3) and “holds all our times” (Psalm 31:15).
God’s servant must not stubbornly resist His pruning work, or despise his discipline – but instead, surrender the tight grasp of our own fair designs, that we may joyfully embrace God’s will for us. May God teach us to seek Him as David did in Psalm 27, that in the face of great armies and false witnesses, he desired most to inquire in God’s temple and gaze upon His beauty. The stillness of our souls in waiting upon Him reflects a deep trust that God “does all things well” (Psalm 119:65).
Of My Own Understanding
Anger, frustration, confusion, and despair
Roll overhead like dark clouds.
I attempt to lean
On the unstable crutch
Of my own understanding,
Leaving me painfully reaping
The consequences of placing trust
In what is seen.
Knocks the makeshift props
I had carefully placed under my heart,
That I may lean completely on
The Rock of Ages –
Who holds all my times,
And knows all my ways.
Seeming instability and insecurity
Cause me to deeply know
The anchor of my soul.
by Emily Burrows